Further in summer than the birds….

When I came home last night from a weeklong stay in Ohio, a single cricket was chirping.  In a couple of weeks there will be a chorus.      By the end of August, there will be thousands of them, singing  through the night and falling silent only with the rising sun.

The sound of the crickets takes me back to middle and high school, and memories of my dad reading  the poems of Emily Dickinson.  For whatever reason, he was fascinated by her, and collected all her poems, letters, and many critical works on her poetry and life–long before she became a popular figure.   I will never forget the night he introduced this favorite to my mother and I at the dinner table:

Further in Summer than the Birds
Pathetic from the Grass
A minor Nation celebrates
Its unobtrusive Mass.

No Ordinance be seen
So gradual the Grace
A pensive Custom it becomes
Enlarging Loneliness.

Antiquest felt at Noon
When August burning low
Arise this spectral Canticle
Repose to typify

Remit as yet no Grace
No Furrow on the Glow
Yet a Druidic Difference
Enhances Nature now

Before Dad explained this poem to us, I had attached no sense of time to the sound of crickets.  I simply never noticed they began to chirp only in late July, and by the end of August are in full harmony—gradually dying off as the leaves turn and summer slips into fall.   And I think, neither had he.  From then on, even after  I grew up and moved away, we listened in unison, no matter how far apart we were, for the inevitable sound that came every year on late July or early August nights, the sound of “Further in Summer than the Birds.”    When  I went to Japan, Dad was eager to know—could  I hear them there?  (Yes, suzumushi, bell crickets, figure in Japanese poetry and art as well, and have even been kept as pets.)

Though both my parents are gone, once my birthday is past in mid-July, I still tune my ear to that first faint raspy chirp, that I know will soon become a “spectral Canticle.”  It leaves me with a bittersweet feeling—the end of summer, the years that have slipped away, and the impermanence of all living things, including those we love.

Omega

Omega Institute in Rhinebeck, New York is one of my favorite places in the world.  A former Yiddish arts camp founded by the Sholom Aleichem (creator of Teyve, from Fiddler on the Roof) Institute, it was taken over in 1981 by its founders  as a healing and holistic health and spiritual retreat  for adults, and has continued to grow ever since.  I first went to Omega in the early 1990s, and, with the exception of the years I was in India  and China, have continued to return ever since.                                                            

This weekend I attended again, meeting my friend Greta from Michigan, and as always, came away  refreshed and thought provoked by the lovely campus, wonderful discussions with new friends, and healthy and organic food.

Omega has grown a lot  over the years since I first started going there, adding a meditation center, Ram Dass Library, and most recently, a state of the art facility for sustainable living and water reclamation.   Operating from the end of April to the end of October, it offers more than 350 programs  ranging from yoga to arts, crafts and  spiritual studies.

This time I attended a workshop given by Sam Keen, a philosopher and graduate of Harvard Divinity school, of Calvinist background, who offered a workshop on “What’s Next–Planning for the Next Decade.”  I thought that was a particularly appropriate workshop for me, and I enjoyed it immensely.  It was a time to reflect on what Sam called “unused futures”–dreams we had as early as childhood that we may have put aside–as well as how we use the time we have, opening our minds to our wildest dreams and gradually whittling them down to what we will do, and reflecting on the gifts we want to share with the world.  Many people in the session–about 30 altogether–were, like me, celebrating a milestone birthday–50, 60, or even 70.  One woman who had written two mystery novels in her 60s was there now,  at the age of 70, to figure out how to share her writing with the world and further express her creativity.  A  doctor in the process of winding down his practice was contemplating his next step–Doctors without Borders, a long held wish to be a standup comedian, or ???  Several others had either just retired or were on the verge of doing so.   All held a fervent wish to find or act on  a passion and  contribute to the world.  Sam himself, who turns 80 this year, was doing the work himself.  As one person remarked, it is a luxury of our era (and perhaps of living in a developed country) to be in this position.

On a more somber note, during the evening we saw a documentary that Sam and director Bill Jersey had made in the 1980s, called “Faces of the Enemy.”  I don’t recall seeing it then; it appeared on PBS, but it is as relevant today (despite the dated hairstyles) as it was 25 years ago.  Weaving the story of a disturbed and  unrepentant  man who was influenced by the propaganda of the Christian Patriots to brutally murder a family of four because he was told they were Communists, with the images that Sam collected from history and around the world, it shows how societies have depicted their enemies  by comparing them to animals, monsters, and even Satan.   It lays out  how ordinary people can become incited to hate and even kill, by repeatedly seeing images and hearing propaganda depicting the “enemy” as less than human.  Most interesting to me was an interview with a Vietnam war veteran, who talked about the fine line in the military between motivating soldiers to kill without inciting them to bloodlust–depersonalizing the enemy without dehumanizing him.  This documentary was created during the Cold War, when Russia and Communists were the enemy.  Unfortunately, it is equally relevant today.

Campobello

After the 3- day walk, we decided to take a short vacation and headed up the Maine Coast.  Need I even say that we stopped at the L.L. Bean mothership in Freeport?  It was a fairly short stop, though, and we didn’t buy out the store.

We also stayed one night in Bar Harbor, which is the last major city on the tourist route off Highway 1 in Maine.  It was buzzing with cruise passengers from a ship that heads from New York up to Nova Scotia, as well as with the normal summer tourist trade.   We had a fabulous dinner at  Mache Bistro, not far from our bed and breakfast, and after dinner, we took a drive in Acadia National Park on the Park Loop road, which affords beautiful views of Bar Harbor (see below).

Then, the following morning we headed back on Route 1 for a couple of hours to the easternmost point in the United States:  Lubec, Maine.

A short bridge ride from Lubec, you pass through Canadian Customs and arrive on Campobello Island in New Brunswick.   Campobello–the scene of the famous play and movie Sunrise at Campobello with Ralph Bellamy– was the summer home of the F.D. Roosevelts, and a place I have always wanted to visit.  It was here that FDR, the virus he had picked up from a stop at a  boy scout camp already working in his body, fell ill with polio in 1921.  The “cottage” (it’s more like a small mansion) is wonderfully kept, with all of the original furnishings, and you can wander the grounds and trails that the family enjoyed during their many summers on the island.  The dock to the Bay of Fundy–which has one of the highest tidal ranges in the world–has been rebuilt, but you can still see the posts from the original dock that would have been used in transporting the paralyzed and very ill future president to the boat that would carry him back to the mainland for treatment.

Campobello does not quite resonate with the same history as the residence at Hyde Park and Eleanor Roosevelt’s beloved Val-Kill, where you can almost sense the energy of the historic figures that walked here during the Roosevelts’ time in public office. Campobello feels more personal.  Here, FDR came every summer from the time he was a baby until he contracted polio in 1921–he would make only three visits to Campobello after that before he died.   Here, the young Eleanor Roosevelt came to stay in 1903 for a summer visit while FDR was courting her;  this is where  the Roosevelt children spent their summers growing up, and Eleanor came here later in life to write her memoirs, buoyed by the salt air, lack of telephones, and the natural beauty that is all around. There was no electricity on Campobello until 1948, and the kitchen still looks like it dates from the turn of the century.

I have a fondness for historical sites–it sparks the imagination to wonder what conversations, both ordinary and momentous, took place in these rooms.  My dad and grandfather were great fans of FDR, and talked of him often when I was growing up.  Even in those days, no one spoke much of FDR’s paralysis, which was so well hidden and carefully managed during his presidency.     My  mother, on the other hand,  didn’t care for FDR–she used to refer to the WPA as “We Piddle Around” , for example— so we had very interesting dinner conversations when talk of the New Deal came up.  Ultimately, I have come to admire Eleanor Roosevelt even more than her husband, both for the way she transformed herself and for her courage in advocating social positions that were far ahead of her time.  A former neighbor now in her 90s,  who I sometimes visit in her nursing home, talked of meeting Eleanor Roosevelt once in the 1940s: “Before she opened her mouth, she was the ugliest woman I had ever seen.  And after she opened it, I thought she was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen.”  Eleanor also proved that one can remain an active, contributing citizen until a very late age.  As she said, “I could not at any age be content to take my place in a corner by the fireside and simply look on.”   Good words to remember. 

The Breast Cancer 3 day Walk

As a recent survivor and in honor of my 60th birthday, I decided to do the Susan G. Komen 3 day, 60 mile walk in Boston.  The walk started Friday and concluded today.  To participate, you have to raise a minimum of $2300, which goes to breast cancer research and community support.  Thanks to my generous friends, family, and colleagues, I was able to exceed this goal by several hundred dollars, which makes me feel very good that my birthday initiative is making a contribution to advancing treatment and finding a cure for this disease.

About 1700 women –and a number of men– participated in the walk, which traversed some historic and beautiful sections of Boston.   The event began with an opening ceremony.   There were speeches from the organizers, and a parade of banners by survivors that ended in a circle around the center of the concourse. Walk participants were invited to write the names of loved ones and friends who have succumbed to the disease on a giant banner, which was then also raised in the center of the concourse. It was very moving.

The walk began about 7:15 a.m., but it was already quite hot, and eventually rose past 100–the hottest day on record in Boston since 1926.   Due to the press of participants, it was very crowded and as we had to cross several streets with traffic lights, the going was slow.   Eventually–about 12:30 p.m.–the route had to be closed because of the extreme heat, and we were bussed to lunch and then to the camp–a Jewish high school in Waltham– where most of the participants were staying.    Camping was not for me, so I elected the creature comforts of a hotel room, which I very much appreciated especially with the heat.

The route had several “pit stops” and the first couple of these on the first day were extremely crowded.  But also along the route were both official and unofficial cheering stations.

The hospitality and warmth of Bostonians is incredible!  Some people left out coolers with water, ice or popsicles; others decorated their yards, and  left their sprinkler on so that it  crossed our path.

Others had set up lawn chairs and expressed their thanks for our walking as we passed, some with spritzers of water, receptacles for our garbage, or baskets of candy.

Small children gave us licorice and stickers.  It will be hard to get used to not being thanked for walking when I return!

Yesterday it rained in the morning and was much cooler, though still well into the 80s by afternoon when I finished 20.8 miles.  I was near the beginning of the line, so the pit stops were not crowded when I got there.  I made the 20 miles by 2:15, none the worse for wear except for  ”golfer’s vasculitis”–a non painful rash that is a hazard for the over 50 crowd of walking too long in the heat.

Today’s walk took us through Cambridge, Harvard Square, the MIT campus and downtown Boston, where one of our pit stops was not far from this iconic statue of Boston, George Washington on a prancing horse:

Today’s walk was also a bit shorter–about 17 miles–and just about everyone had one or more blisters, including me.  My feet were pretty sore, so I took it slow and easy and crossed the finish line about 3:30 p.m., with Marty there to greet me.  We walked down the “Victory Lane” to cheers on both sides.

It was a moving experience.  I met countless people along the way who were  united in one cause:  to support the effort to find a cure for breast cancer.  I hope that my over 100,000 steps during these  3 days–and the generosity of my friends–has brought that day closer.

Welcome to the Sixties

On Sunday I turned sixty.   In many parts of Asia, to turn 60 is a significant event–more significant than 50, which we Americans mark as important because it’s half a century.   In Japan, the 60th birthday is called kanreki (還暦)  which means return to infancy (although for some reason, only for men).  It is also important in China and Korea.    This is based on the Chinese calendar which was originally organized in 60 year cycles, so that the planetary cycle returns to the same position as when you were born.   So, in a sense, to turn 60 is not only a recognition of longevity (and maybe wisdom), but also signifies that one has an opportunity to begin anew.

In honor of this event, and in honor of beginning a new decade, I decided to restart a blog.  I kept a blog faithfully when I was in India, and less faithfully when I returned to the United States and then went back out again, this time to China  (the links to my previous blogs are on the right).   I am calling it “The Age of Wander”  because I’m really not sure which direction these years will take me.   Maybe only as close as my garden, which is now blossoming the inevitable zucchini as well as grapes, beans, and herbs?    Or perhaps as far away as India again, or Africa?   Who knows?   I also look forward to the journey of values and knowledge, which grew immeasurably between 50 and 60, and which I assume will do so again in the new decade.

As of this writing, I haven’t quite gotten my arms around being sixty.  It seems like it must be incredibly old, but I keep thinking of that phrase used by the famous advice columnist,  Ann Landers, who said, “Age–it’s only a number, baby.”    On Sunday, I ran an 8 mile race in Stowe VT and came in 8 out of 10 in my age group.  Of  course, the 10 of us were the oldest female runners in a field of more than 900, but it still impressed on me that I have a ways to go before I am in really great shape.  It does feel like an opportunity to begin anew, and I hope to make my biggest contributions yet to our troubled and majestic planet. Please join me for the journey.